Old hella post. There are a lot of guilty i have until now: When i cant protect my friends, old fellas of mine, when they were in trouble. When i thought everything was okay but it is not okay When my feeling (rn) said that something wrong happened with my gf but she did not want to talk about it When i was against you in that election When i knew already that i am not a grown up ass man When i told to my fam that i might not marry Indonesians (coz my gf is foreigner as well) and a lot of stuff But my pleasures right now when i am with her (my current gf), like i am not afraid to be myself. like i wont lose my pride just because of my immaturity action. so, she is the light of my life now P. S. She is mixed asian