@나는_죽었다 Hello there...
All that you wrote above... It suits almost all of us... And I'm no exception. But worse. I finally lost myself. Instead of doing things because I wanted, I do them because I have to. And to avoid showing emotions, I barricaded from everyone, even from my very own parents. I can take on all the shit that life throws at me, but I don't know if I'll last that long. Hell, I even got no shoulder to cry on just because I'm a man. To make matters worse, I have a mental ilness (Asperger's syndrome) and guess what? People are angry - no, they are mad at me because I don't act like a normal person.
Just please help. It's ok if you ignore too.