They said everything happens for a reason... I'm not sure what the reason is but I don't want it to happen. Year passed and I am still lost... The phone doesn't ring, I never heard her say hello. I often hear her name on the street, park, malls and it feels like my heart has been splintered into little pieces... Is she real? Yes, she is real. I feel love and pain and terrible feeling mix up, trying to choke me but not to death.