vent: i know i’ll be okay but im really struggling rn. my first relationship just ended and we still love each other but she needs time to heal from a past abusive relationship she never gave herself time to. when she called me, drunk, saying we should get back together and that she loved me it hurt so much. bc she didn’t mean it and i love her so much but it would’ve been wrong for me to say it in that moment. i knew my silence hurt her and that kills me. i’ll miss her dog so much too, teddy. he’s such a sweet boy. she attempted four times in our six months of dating and it was honestly so bad for my anxiety but i worry more now that she doesn’t have me. i also know i shouldn’t have to deal with this bc i just turned sixteen and it feels like way too much to be dealing with right now with other mental struggles i’m having at the moment too. i’m trying to reach out to friends but i can’t dump everything on them bc that would be too much. i just want someone to hold me. i want her to hold me. and it hurts so much but i’ll be okay.