It is not worth to kill yourself, but as someone who has experienced this strong pain and is going through it again, I know no words will help you. It will be up to you. I know it seems like the end of the world, how can you live without this person you felt this connection with. But you will met someone else, and find a love that will be greater (even if you do not think anyone will be better than him) there will be. May sound stupid but try to go on dates, or met other people somehow, even if you do not think you will enjoy the night out, just get yourself out there, it will distract your mind and eventually the pain will go away.

It is not worth to kill yourself, but as someone who has experienced this strong pain and is going through it again, I know no words will help you. It will be up to you. I know it seems like the end of the world, how can you live without this person you felt this connection with. But you will met someone else, and find a love that will be greater (even if you do not think anyone will be better than him) there will be. May sound stupid but try to go on dates, or met other people somehow, even if you do not think you will enjoy the night out, just get yourself out there, it will distract your mind and eventually the pain will go away.