for me, emotion is like colors in a white canvas, give colors to life while confusion like a transparent color,try so hard to paint it but in the end,the canvas still white,represent the feeling of emptiness for me.
being sad,happy,weird or even depress is normal but i know sometimes its hard to control our own emotion like i don't know what type of color do i want to paint to my canvas,will it be more beautiful or worse?sometimes i really need one color but sometimes to get only color,i have to go through a lot of trouble and pain.sometimes after the pain,i still don't get the color that i want.what should i do?
try to find another color or maybe i try to make by mixing what i left or maybe i rest for awhile,then continue to get the color that i desire.
emotion is a gift and a curse.
that makes the word of life.
so for your question,don't let go of your emotion.
try to find the cause and solution and i believe it will take a lot of time but my dear it is ok to slowly searching about ourselves and it is ok sometimes we fall,instead of saying fall lets try to use the word rest and it is always ok to get some rest along this life journey.
i don't know what kind of situation or emotion that you're going through but if you think being dead is better,my dear,everyone will be dead someday and the time of dead will come without anyone knowing.
i used to have an overwhelm emotion and always depress and easily get so touchy with people's words and when people just get a lil bit of anger with my mistake,im easily to cry and i hate so much because i feel ashamed of myself.
lot of time i always want to be like psychopath because they don't have feeling,smart and attractive are the descriptions about them.i feel them to be so cool!
time really play the role for me,maybe im lucky but im really grateful,maturity come to me and while in the journey,i really like to take personality tests,fiction or non-fiction or whatever quizzes or tests that relate to human mentality,weakness and strength,i took a lot of them but im started to accept the egoism of mine.
this is just my story.
i really hope that the warm of sunlight will become your blanket,cover up your coldness.the leaves that fall out from the trees become your thousand green coloured stars that will sparkling and comforting your mundane days.like trees that fall out almost all of their leaves,many new leaves will growth although will take a lot of time.i really hope for the best for you.