@Lazz
wow, you're really observant :D all i can say in my defence is that everything i post online is unfiltered, so i might seem "very outspoken" (the fact that you think that is surprising, that's the last word people irl would use to describe me lol)
it's like wearing a mask, you know? online, i can be as opinionated or talkative as i want to be. it's sort of liberating, because i can be me. the real me~.
however, in real life? yeah, um.... i can't do any of those things, i literally don't know how. i'm an incredibly timid person and i hate it.
but you have a good point, i've become a bit of an annoying nuisance. i'm going to shush myself and act more mature :)