@humanbean89 oh, i feel ya about the rejected application and i am sorry to hear that. But you know, after i got around 26 official rejection letter from well-known companies, almost 309 all of my application to companies was unknown and i think it was rejected, around 65 times attended the job interview, i never thought to end up my life. You know, somehow we dont get what we want but we get what we need. So, just accept all of rejection and move on. Everycloud has a silver lining. Just dont give up and be strong.
About your ungrateful life, seriously i dont want to cheer you up because all you need right now is not "good and beautiful words", you need friends. I ever had in such situations, i know what you feel and i understand. I am sorry to hear that. I dont want to offend you more with my words but allow me to say i wish you have a speedy recovery. It does not mean when you have a bad life in your past life, you will be a bad person in a future. Life is on your hand, just embrace yourself, be strong and move on. You will be mature enough to face the world after all of your terrible stories be your good learning :)