@Ella-26 Ella, I wish it was just hard. I'm sure I would have managed to overcome it. Sometimes I feel that it's kinda impossible 😔. I never wanted to lose her. I keep trying everyday to come out of it but again I fail terribly. She loved my poems but now I can't even communicate this poem to her. She'll think I don't respect her choice but believe me I do respect her a lot — So, I even changed my phone number because I can't block her anywhere on social media. But I don't want her to know how my life has changed ever since she left me. My parents hate her because they think she ditched me but I know she isn't like that 😒. Even my friends say so. But I know her better than anyone, she's very different, she's introvert.... She couldn't even share her pain with me.... No one understands me 😔 and I feel so abandoned sometimes.
I'm the worst influence
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Whenever you say no sometimes I'll take that as a challenge,
to infiltrate your mind with things you wanna do,
but you say there's no time to.
I look for the chinks in your disposition,
and I get inside through the tiniest holes,
penetrating your thoughts,
and inhibitions,
to push towards the naughty,
or just to the "I shouldn't",
but never towards the "I wouldn't",
cause I know you too well.
I know you'll enjoy it,
I'm just a slight push from time to time,
a little devil on your shoulder,
that can take a hold of you.
My whispers are subtle when needed
or blunt when I know you're in the mood,
but you'll fall for it eventually,
because I know what makes you tick.
That soft correction,
the subtle jabs at your self restraint,
and getting into what I know you want.
I'll make you stay up too late,
enjoying yourself as I take joy,
just knowing I got you doing more than you expected.