Just a place to look back at.

[BlossomingLove]

Its not often I miss a girl, but there is this 1 girl I truly miss right now, maybe its not tears I cried for life, but sure are running down my cheeks as I type this.
I wish I said more to her, how I felt about.
We really didn't know each other much, she definitely knew more about me then I did about her, but she was so pleasant to talk to.
Remembering how ....special she was for me in that moment makes me regret not speaking my mind, but how could I knew things would eventually come around for me, how could I have known things will start to get better.
I couldn't , so I kept my mouth shut as I should.
Its not just today, often I come here, and I remember her, such a fine gall couldn't had stayed for long, especially how people act around here.
Its late now to feel bad about it, but regret is unavoidable.

Maybe its just another excuse my head is making to light a smoke, "do it, you got hurt, it will help you relax, its arlight in this case to have a whole smoke".

I hope not, I'd really feel like shit then.

[BlossomingLove]

Well ain't I a buzz killer

Head up soldier !
This shit always cracks me up, its inspiring and funny at the same time.

[BlossomingLove]

Hell.

I am not gonna run from the thing they call past
Look my self in the eyes, concepts where placed in my head.

[BlossomingLove]

about an hour ago
Less go, not even half a smoke

Lets see what else can I dig up, and remember. Sure hell ain't a lot I posted, I should had been doing this more often.
Guess its a note to my self.
Only fear is that with time it will be lost in this virtual space and I will regret not writing a dairy.
Tho at least I can be a bit less direct about things here, make it more fun for my self to decode what I was thinking.

[BlossomingLove]

Ah yes, leave this beautiful song here, just in case you didn't do it before.
One of my favorite songs, I love dancing , I'll get better at it as I grow stronger each day, more given to moment with how I feel and not imagining how I would like things to be.
is what it is, enjoying either way, all the way.

[BlossomingLove]

It was really nice when I went out to bluz i pivo, seeing how people sit around , not able to fully enjoy them self, just because reasons I am not gonna be typing down.
At least I had opportunity to let my self go a bit, bring up the best of what I am.
But I miss them in those moments , I can't see trough the wall they built in front of their true beings so they seem so ugly.

[BlossomingLove]

This man gets it.

[BlossomingLove]

I don't really love this one, and I will never forget its name, but just in case, you never know.

[BlossomingLove]

[BlossomingLove]

Gosh, what a gem.

[BlossomingLove]

Brass Monkey

[BlossomingLove]

I wanted to smack the monkey, but I know I am not gonna do it properly, so I chose not to.
Smart boy. Take care of your monkey.

[BlossomingLove]

This post is deleted!

[BlossomingLove]

[BlossomingLove]

Youtube listed this for me as a gray day list...MF this is for when I am hyped.

[BlossomingLove]

200 hip ups is enough, this is gonna hurt when I wake up.

[BlossomingLove]

[BlossomingLove]

This song used to make me cry
What else is left forgotten.

[BlossomingLove]

[BlossomingLove]

Time to put a chicken in a marinade, then I will come back to look some more of my past posts, especially the one that had that special zing behind them. Might be just video posts, but I remember how I felt and what I thought.

I can't wait to look back at this as well one day, this moment truly is special , like those other ones , but those where special in a bad way.

P.S. It has been around hour when I smoked half of a cig.

Breaking records, hopefully it was not all for nothing right ?

If you are reading this while smoke is hanging out of your mouth...well fuck, I should have done better on this day.

Hopefully I want let you down.

Your truly, yourself.