I'd like to tell anyone who is struggling to find a reason to carry on; Think of a memory. Think of a time in your life when you were truly happy, no matter how how big or small that moment was, dwell on it. Now think of a time in your life when things were worse than they are for you now, a time when you thought there was nary a chance to come through it in one piece. let it pass through your mind for a moment. Think back to people you have loved, who have loved you in return, regardless of where they are now, take a moment to analyze your triumphs and your failures. understand that no matter what happens in life, you have to keep the goodness from your past held strong in your heart, and carry that joy with you in the darkest of shadows, You need to look back on the events in your life that just about broke you in two, and draw strength from that. You are still here, You're still fighting, even if you don't want to, even if you feel like you cant. embrace that fighting spirit. and turn your pain into motivation, channel all that emotion into a fuel for your will. and keep in mind. there have been times in your life where you knew joy, and those days will return, especially if you FIGHT for them. life doesn't get easier. I wish I could say that it does, but that would be a lie. The difference lies with you. You get better at handling the hardship, and eventually, events that almost broke you will seem like no big deal, so long as you keep striving to do better. the last thing i'd like to say; You can only rely on yourself at the end of the day. Learn to love yourself, accept your flaws, and change the things that are in your power to change. You have to accept yourself for who you are, because you cant break up with, nor cut ties with yourself. you have to accept every mistake and shortcoming and love yourself unconditionally. on top of that, you most likely have people that love you, that need you in this world, and would never be the same without you. You can make it through this, even if you are at your lowest, for if that's the case, the only way to go is up.
I can't be myself with the people around me. Is that bad?
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The title speaks for itself. I just can't be me. I have to some kind of an example around all the people i have met the past 2 years. I act happy, never gets mad or stressed and have to take care of many people around me. It's taking a toll on my studies and my hobbies. I just needed a place to let it all out! Damn!
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Also fuck my college!
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Im gonna flunk because you stupid Head of Departments don't fucking care about your students. You just want to make your fucking miserable life convenient by screwing us! Pieces of shit!
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Ya bad but being in college is hard
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I understand that college is hard especially in my field(medical) but my college is on a whole another level of bullshit. While all other colleges have conducted their internals online and are actually trying to help their students because of the setbacks caused by covid, my college just preponed our exams which was to set to start next month to the 27. They basically said fuck you to our time management and time table. Not to mention we are having 2 different exams for different subjects in one day, which goes on for 4 days without a break. They want us to study and revise all the subjects in 3 days? These teachers have no care for their students men. Even the online classes were shitty!
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The girl i have a crush on is also getting away from me. What a shitty start to the year.
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@D1Vine Thanks man. I am actually very composed irl and takes it easy. I was just soo fckin frustrated for earlier. I just dont fckin care anymore. xD
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@Whatever77 I have been in a place where I felt like I needed to please people to keep them happy or feel right within myself. It was actually toxic for me and the built up feelings of angst were burning me out. It took a long time to realise that it's a futile endeavour.
There is a problem with that environment. People shouldn't expect us to bend to their whim all time but equally if we allow it by not trying be our authentic self then people will generally not try to help us change. The answer for me was in my self talk. I had to change the way I see myself and not be threatened by other people.
I don't know if your situation is similar or not. But I do know that emotionally you can't go through life trying to please other people without paying the price in your own mental or emotional stability 😁
Edit: And props to you for talking about it openly. That's a great step towards dealing with a problem 👍