@jimmy1708 I'm not afraid of dying. And I'll always tell myself I don't want to die old. If a car hit me on my way to work one morning, I'd be totally fine to leave this world. A world where I've always felt lost, where I never felt like I belong. Sometimes I'd itch so hard for that to happen haha. Sometimes, I'm just fine. Okay.
No, I don't fear dying. But I fear what it does to the people I will leave behind. I've seen death and its effects, experienced it first hand. I am unwilling for my loved ones to feel that pain because of me. So for them, I stay.