You will never understand!😔🙄

[The Dex]

I always seem to be, the enemy of your heart
No matter what I say, I seem to tear you apart
Forever on the wrong side, of this infinite fence
If spoke from heart, would you still take offence?
So angry at me, you don’t see this hurts me too
Even in lies, to hide the agony, you see what’s true
Jump over, to find myself on the same side again
Can’t seem to figure this out, and stop all the pain
My tears are forever falling, but hidden in the rain
Storm that rages above me, is your fury and distain
What I seem to feel, it’s not enough for us to gain
I can never reach you, when my words are foreign
Slammed your door shut, and always find mine open
But your arms only open, when my heart is so broken
Can I ever find solace, when nothing can go unspoken?
Do I have to be at deaths door, before I am forgiven?
So wrapped up in what you feel, you don’t see me inside
Nothing left for me to say, no one left to which I confide
Alone and battered, as I hold all my feelings to the side
Trapped and lost in a world, I don’t understand but reside
As if there’s time in my life, I want back after times I tried
You don’t understand and you’re always, so angry at me
Illusion that we could ever work, I just want to be free
I sit in silence and try to comprehend, what is my reality
But never a peaceful thought, is conjured from your fury
I can never leave, but I can take anymore of this battery
I sometimes welcome death, but it’s just easier to cry
So much hate of me, would you be happy if I was to die
You don’t see what this is doing to me, don’t wish to defy
But you never see anything in me, how I wish I could fly
To leave this time and place, to another moment to ask why?