I can identify with your reasons. I'm not married nor am I currently in a relationship. I just enjoy the female form but I take it too far because I spend too much time viewing it. I'm better than I used to be but think I'd be better off without it at all. I miss the older, simpler days.
"If a man wants love, he should correct his flaws and he may deserve it" -Ayn Rand
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Well listen to Ayn Rand, you need to work fir that shit
Or if you've been friend zoned listen to Pink Omega:
Lol but seriously though i actually started answering your questions planning to see if you're ok or not, if you're depressed or feel suicidal, keep it simple, see a therapist.
