if you finally gained it all , the money ,the fame, the love, the success,the health what would you still miss?
for me it would be that nagging sensation that I had of being a loser haha which always pushed me harder in life to do something more.
Exposing Myself Cause I'm Not a Pussy
Here's the true story from start to finish
Once upon a time I came to TWS because I genuinely thought it was cool. Like literally everything else in life, it had plenty of faults, but most of the people here seemed happy. So, I joined. I didn't start making topics for a while but when I did, I got attention. I gained a lot of popularity and people started liking me pretty quickly. They expected me to post more and gain reputation and loads of other things. I didn't know any better, so I tried.
Then, shortly after I met 2 people. (a boy and a girl) For a while, I thought they were my best friends. Now I know they are both fake, I mean they lied about their identity, accounts, etc. One of them, the girl, I was happy she was friends with me. She introduced me to a lot of people, and we had a little circle. Most of those people don't come around anymore. They all slowly left, and now maybe 1 or 2 are still here.
The boy I met was really sweet. I thought he was being a good friend to me, so I tried to give him everything. He made me super happy. That all turned sour a few months ago when I realised he wasn't who he said. He had another profile, with which he pretended he was a girl and did a lot of very wrong things. This person convinced me to make different accounts as well, he said it was good and everyone did it. I believed him, and that's how the account @Gay-Boy was made. He told me to model them after my real life friends and stay active on them, so I did. After I found out it was bad, of course I stopped using them
A bit later after this, my friend Joey wanted to see what TWS was about, and I told him about the account I made after him. He started using this account every now and then, which I didn't mind because in a way, it was his. At this point he was learning about rep and how it worked, and began to upvote my posts. He said I should use the other ones to do the same thing, so I did. Now I know that in a way I am a follower and should learn to say no and think for myself. Lots of people lead me to do things that I wouldn't have done otherwise.
Anyway after this he started to get bored and said he would see how to fuck with people. He started being more annoying in the public chat and randomly downvoting posts. He asked me about a user called Sup and my relationship with him. I told him we didn't talk often and I didn't even know his name. All he said was okay. I didn't think much of it, and I continued to let him use my mac to get on TWS.
Shortly after, Joey said he wasn't interested in TWS anymore and I wanted to know why. He said people were too uptight. That day I found out he'd been downvoting people's posts, specifically Sup, and telling people about me so I could gain rep. I assume he thought he was helping, but he wasn't. Sup started to message to me after a while, trying to upset me and getting angry. I explained to him multiple times what was going on, and he just got worse and worse. Someone told me he cried and was very upset for a long time because rep is so important to him. For a while, I let things fly over my head because that's all I could do about it.
Recently, just yesterday I made a topic about the decline of TWS. I talked about what I thought they could do better, and what the users could do better. I was accused of the accounts, which I owned up to, because it's true. Someone did tell me to make other accounts, and I was foolish. I'll admit that much. But when the person accused me of downvoting posts to get ahead, I got upset. Me, personally? I would never do that. Yes, I have downvoted posts, but only on my own topics, and only when I don't agree with them. I wouldn't downvote posts recklessly just for the hell of it. After expressing this, things got better, and after explaining, a lot of new people felt for me and the old ones were no longer upset.
So, there you have it. It's all in the air now. This is the truth, and there isn't anything I can do to change it. I never would have thought reputation could be so important to people. I never thought it could be important enough to ruin relationships. I called Joey today and he said it was alright if I posted this using his real name, and he's reading this before I post it to verify everything. To be clear, YES I KNOW THIS IS A 1st WORLD PROBLEM. I know that there are people dying and starving and actually being abused in real life. I'm very in touch with reality, and in the grand scheme of things, this isn't important. It will be forgotten about, and the petty things done by Joey and Sup will fade within a few months. I did think, however that it'd be good to explain this to everyone before I leave and a topic was the best way.
This isn't the reason I'm leaving TWS. I am not one to run away when times get hard, and I can withstand the hate or anything else I may receive. I'm leaving because TWS isn't good for me. People around me have seen how it's been effecting me, and I personally don't even like it anymore. It really was fun while it lasted though, and I have no regrets. I'll be checking in randomly about once a month to have small chats with the people that follow me, and the other friends I have. So, I guess this doubles as a goodbye.
WELP If you read all that, you're a real one. I'll miss most of you guys, a lot of you were really special to me. I think that's all the tea I have to spill today, sis.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my beautiful babes.
Remember that no matter what happens, things will work out if you stay real
Much love, and thanks
how to lose weight fast? Quick and easiest way to reduce fat?
- Never skip breakfast, its the most important meal of the day. If you eat enough at breakfast, you can skip lunch or eat less food in lunch time.
- Don't think about the calories you have gained during breakfast, since the calories are going to get burned very fast (especially if you gained them in the morning), also you still have the hole day in front of you and you need a lot of energy.
- Dont eat anything after 7 PM, because thats approximately the time when your body gets exhausted and stops to burn calories and thus turning it into fat.
- Don't stop eating at all and never do extreme diet, because then your body thinks that their is a food crises and thus your fat reserves come out and your skin will look thicker and thats why you will look more fat.
- Eat HEALTHY, no fast food etc.
- Eat, until you are not hungry anymore, but don't eat so much until you feel full and feel like throwing up, because then your stomach stretches and you will feel hungry faster and eat more than necessary.
- Don't use pills ore medicine that promises you to stop your hunger, keep it natural for a long term result, because you don't want to depend on the medicine forever, right ?
- make sport activities which require stamina, for example: "jogging", that way you will stress your body constantly a period of time (depends how long you can keep running lol) and so burning a lot of calories, but don't exaggerate and don't run till you collapse, take it step by step and get better every time. (2 times a weak is good, 3 times a weak is ideal)
- drink a lot of water and if you feel limp or powerless don't hesitate to eat.
That was my plan hope it works for you, but you look good weighted and healthy on the picture though. If anybody told you that you are fat, don't believe him
Let’s Talk Bout da Hate
So at about 2 or 3 in the morning the other day. I was crying. Sobbing in fact. Weak of me, I know. But I recognize that Im a sensitive, emotional person. Now some of you may not care, most of you in fact. And thats alright. Just let me do what I do best, rant. So if you dont feel like reading yet another one of my long posts, move along :).
Now moving onto the real purpose of this post. Why was I crying? Because I have a problem. As always. I have a problem with people. People who find it okay to hate on others. And Im not talking about the friends teasing friends, thats another story. Im talking about the strangers that get on this website to troll. You meet new people, that youve never seen or talked to, and DESTROY them. After becoming moderator, I gained my fair share of haters. After each user I surpassed in “top posters” and “most reputed”, I gained more and more. I know you can think of an instance where you were insulted. Where someone said something that made you stop dead in your tracks. I know youve seen someone beat on someone else. Its a cruel world.
A year ago I had around 20k followers on instagram. The majority of them followed me because they wanted to. I was a model after all. After my accident with my stepdad, it left me with scars along my hips, shoulders, stomach, and back. Most have disappeared since, but last year they were clearly visible. I did a bikini shoot, hesitantly. The photographer and designer were trying to show their support of natural beauty, so nothing was very edited. And when I posted a picture from it, my scars were showing. I never expected so many comments. So many negative comments. I had never had the confidence to show anyone before then. And after so much hate, I not only deleted the post, all my social media was deleted. I havent shown anyone my scars since.
I joined TWS because I needed a nonjudgemental environment, where people couldnt see me, and I could describe myself however I please. But yet...here I am greeted with so much hatred. So much shame. Its disgusting.
Sometimes online its easy to forget that behind the screen, there are decent people with feelings. They may not show it, but trust me, it’s there.
Im sick of it. Im absolutely 100% disgusted. And Im 100% sorry. Im sorry if I ever made anyone feel like I feel now. Im sorry for the trolls. I wonder how sucky their life is that they have to talk poorly about people online. Im also sorry for anyone that feels like this right now.
I just want to say to myself (self centered sounding, oops) and anyone else who has been trolled, bullied, treated as less than individual, and/or felt like trash, that just because people talk, you dont have to listen. In real life, walk off. Online, just walk away. Also, bullies/trolls are the weak ones, not you. @Lucifer_ told me last night, “Humans are born and live their whole life that they are superior to every other thing be it animals, insects, or other humans. So when anyone shows them that they are not the best or they suck, humans just lash out.” They do it because you have something that they dont. As hard as it is to believe, you have a quality that they wish they had. Whether it be your beauty, intelligence, carefree-seeming attitude, or positive personality, you are better than them. And they hate you for that.
You dont have to please anyone. Because at the end of the day, your opinion is the only one that matters. Dont let them affect your outlook. Dont let them get to your head. And most definitely, dont waste your thoughts or tears on scums like them.
Keep the people you love close to you, because they only want you to be happy. Ive heard on here at some point, I believe a comment made by @thestrangest , its about quality, not quantity. And of course, I cannot forget what @RAGNAR told me. “Then dont be sad. Dont let it bother you. At the end of the day its you.”
I never want to feel like trash. I never want you guys to be treated unfairly. Because despite most of you not caring to read this (thank you to anyone that did), most people here have some beautiful souls. And I smile every time I open this site. Im not going to let the brief frowns stop me. And you shouldnt either.
Love yourselves. And if you cant do that, let me love you. Trust me, I can do it. I can honestly say I have one good thing about every user here. Even my haters. No one person is more entitled than another, hell we were all born practically the same.
I also need to acknowledge this for my peace of mind. Yesterday I was repeatedly called a slutty tranny. I will admit, in my glasses I look like a pubescent twelve year old boi, but I am not tranny. Nor am I a slut. So, now that the matter is cleared up.
Have a beautiful day mah babies
I'm Not Going To Hide It
i have cancer, and I'm going thru Chemo
The only thing you've gotten is A POWERFUL CASE OF LIE & BULLSHIT.
if u were wondering this is what i kook like.
The pictures are that of Andrea Sierra Salazar, a high school girl from Texas, USA.
Not you @Ella_Sky .
http://mp.wzlcms.com/nvren/shishang/2016-09-06/2274.html (Here's the complete article,posted in 2016 ...click it & go ,right click & translate the page to English .The article is in the middle part .
For those that cannot go I'm also posting the article & pictures here below.See for yourself the lies.)
Andrea Sierra Salazar, a high school girl from Texas, USA, dreams of a sunny day and a dream model.
But reality is always cruel... Salazar was diagnosed with stage 2 lymphoma. This sadness makes the girl feel better about the future. Completely broken.
(NOTICE THE WATERMARK ON THE LOWER RIGHT OF IMAGE)
if u were wondering this is what i kook like.
Cancer treatment gradually made her hair fall off. Salazar was caught in a depression. "Before receiving chemotherapy, I was a confident girl. But now my hair is falling. Every time I look at myself in the mirror, I can't believe it. Is this really me?"
Watching her daughter Salazar degenerate, Mom suggested she regain her dream of becoming a model. In the past, she spent most of her time studying. Now it may be a good opportunity!
With her mother's encouragement, Salazar regained his confidence and started his own model work. She wore a wig, makeup, and released a lot of photos to social platforms. Netizens said she was very optimistic and greatly liked it!
Salazar wearing a wig always felt that it wasn't true himself until she met photographer Gerardo Garmendia.
Although she did not have beautiful hair, she was still radiant. Salazar was hesitant when taking the shot, but then she stood up in front of the camera!
Salazar hopes to arouse the self-confidence of the young girls who also got cancer through these photos.
Her powerful heart “defeated” her illness. She is not a beautiful princess but an admirable queen!
Here's the article @Ella_Sky copied from - https://www.boredpanda.com/bald-teen-cancer-photoshoot-andrea-sierra-salazar-gerardo-garmendia/
There are bad people that will take advantage of your good heart to gain sympathy & upvotes.
Even if it means disrespecting the lives & memories of millions of cancer patients & deaths & their families.
Signature of "Brave girl fighting cancer" :
as well as Tag of "This is me" :
... the only thing you are is a stupid coward.
You use the picture of someone who had cancer,who suffered & had strength.
A real life hero.
You use that persons story to gain upvotes & sympathy.
You fool other well meaning people .
whose heart goes to you & wish you well.
How...truly sad ....
from your life experience and the knowledge u gained, tell me your vision about the purpose of our life ?
do you believe in such thing call luck?
I wouldn't say luck is something supernatural. I would use it to describe a situation where someone gained something despite a lack of skill. Like the lottery.
Congratulations To The Most Assholic Person ON TWS!!!!!!!!
@SUmof1 Congratulations! You have successfully gained a lot of attention.
-111 is a great achievement. "May the downvotes be with you"