I cant take it anymore
my dad is verbally and physically abusing me. <\3
I have marks on my body and also have lie about it, he does it to my mom as well but not as often anymore
my friends dont even seem to give a flying fuck.
i had to get this off my chest, sorry for swearing
RESIGNATION - I WON'T BE A MODERATOR ANYMORE
Well I am just an ordinary teenage girl living in a small corner of the world . I am tired of those misogynistic comments , threats , primitive mentality and all . Unbanning people who got banned without reason ?? Like seriously ??? We didn't ban people for timepass . Being a moderator made me sooooooooooo famous that my fans started making ids with usernames like cutie is gay . Woww , soo creative !!!!! But sorry , I don't admire such creativity and I am not suppoesed to either . My trolls and bad wishers will be very happy but I'll be happy too coz I'll be free from the fans with such usernames , one of them is mentioned above . Being a moderator was like a dream come true but in the matter of time , it turned out being a nightmare . My dearest friend @Lucifer_ resigned the moderator post and my other mod friends r on the verge of resigning . I'll miss my powers but I'll get the peace back . @Lucifer_ left due to certain reasons but the worst thing about it was that the Admin didn't even care . We tried to clean the dirt from this site like sweepers without even getting any pay but all we got is hatred and warnings that if we ban someone else so we'll be unmodded . So hatred is all over the world so I can't help but at least I can stop myself from receiving warnings by resigning the so called prestigious GLOBAL MODERATOR POST . Cheers to the good experiences I had while being a moderator and Cheers to these mods/ex-mods who are selflessly dedicated to TWS and peace @lucifer_ , @willoww , @ragnar , @anti-cute , @vrinda , @bushmurry and the last but not the least @cutie-cat . Cheers
WE DON'T TALK ANYMORE , LIKE WE USED TO DO
So it's like I loveeee writing letters so here presenting one more letter to someone who was closest to me but now the situation is , well same like the title .
We met before somewhat 4 years , you are the person I fought with the most . I mean yeah real fight , we used to beat each other on the street . Those rainy days , when we were walking on the street , going towards the bus and you jumped in a puddle and splashed the water all over me , yuckkkkk . You once said to me ,"Come on Priyanka , you are one of my bestest friends who knows all of my f*¢#ing secrets ." But I realise that you are the one who hurt me the most , even physically . Remember when you were just swaying the cricket bat in the air and I arrived there , the bat hit my arm and I got a serious muscle injury . You even double crossed me and today u did someone so awful ,due to which I have started hating you more . You know what , I know you won't ever read this but if u ever do and if u ever recognize me then I would like to tell you the reason why my username is @cutie-cat . You used to call me a cat remember , that's y when I was making this account , I couldn't think of any other username . We are not that good friends , like we used to be and we don't talk anymore , like we used to do .
I don’t want to be here anymore
I have a son and a fiancé and I’m depressed to the point where I wish every night that my son will be taken care of and then I wish to not wake up the next morning. I don’t want to be alive anymore but I’m not brave enough to end it myself though I want to so badly.
Sooooo I’m not leaving the site anymore
My notifications exploded because I was leaving for a week.......so I decided to stay and use less cellular data YEP THATS RIGHT I WAS GONNA LEAVE BECAUSE I USED SO MUCH DATA BUT PEOPLE DIDNT LET ME LEAVE
I dont want to co.promise in my marriage anymore
I dont want to compromise in my marriage anymore. I want didnt sign up for a custody battle or a full time child in the house.
Share your problems with Sir Devil
I don't know what to do... I have a best friend, let's call him D , I tell him everything even darkest, most shameful things about me. We used to live together as roommates before. I really deeply care about him, he is like a brother to me. We are friends for over 5 years now.
But he is very secretive. He isn't really talkative either. I know like facts of his biography. I've met his parents, his childhood friends. I grew up in foster care mostly, was abused physically and emotionally. for a period of time even sexually.(Important to the problem)
But here comes the bad part. When we used to be roommates we rented a studio together when we both just turned 18. We worked at the same place, same schedule, so we were together 24/7. Both of us are straight dudes.(Important to the story). We had mutual friends and coworkers.
With two of them C and F, we used to be really close friends, both me and my best friend D. But both those dudes were gay. We saw no problem with that.
But it all went to hell when C told me that he is in love with my best friend D. I told him, I don't like that, but he has to tell D that himself. He was a really good friend. So he did, D reacted calmly, but told him that he is straight and it isn't mutual. I couldn't hang out with both of them, so i barely saw C anymore, only at work.
C told this story to F, who is also gay (all our other friends are straight in case you wondering). So F was like really chill about all of this. We still hanged out: me, D and F. So one night we all had too much to drink and our apartment was closest, so we just decided to let him crash at our place on the pull-out sofa for the night. A decision I deeply regret.
I woke up in the middle of the night to pee, I got up and saw D in bed on the pull-out with F, D on top of F, actively making out. Under one blanket. So it was he who came to F.
I was so shocked!!!! I just stood there for a moment and had to hurry to the toilet. I proceeded to the bathroom, could not hold it any longer. When I came back they still were in the same bed but under separate blankets, pretended to be asleep.
I didn't know what to do. But definitely couldn't sleep. So I sat at my desk with a laptop, put headphones on but it right across them, so I look at them over my laptop. They definitely understood that I caught them. I went to the balcony to smoke, for a couple of minutes, just to give them a chance to get dressed if they weren't.
When I came back they were in two different beds. I sat back at the desk. Looking right at both of them. I got really angry about this. At one point I saw D peek to see if i went to bed. Our eyes met, he definitely got that i was mad. So he turned away. they pretended to be asleep or fell asleep( i don't know for how long this went on).
Couple ours later as public transportation started working, I woke F up, told him to collect his stuff and go. He told me i was messed up! But he went.
Next day at work D avoided me entirely, wouldn't even meet my stare. Went out to lunch with F. But had to come home after work. He wrote to me on Facebook a message that he is sorry, that he fucked up, that he is disgusted by F. He doesn't know what got into him, nothing like this will happen again. He was really distraught. I was enraged.
So when we came home after work, we had a discussion about it. I didn't hide my disgust and anger. So we agreed that he is going to tell F that he is not our friend anymore and to never contact D or me. I went even further and actually made a threat on the life of F, I told F if I catch him talking to D. Couple days on I did, so I beat him up badly, no broken bones thankfully. I do martial arts as a hobby(MMA). I told him if i ever saw his ass around even our block, I will use my gun to kill him even if it is the last thing I do. So F quit work couple weeks later, never saw him again.
I hacked D's laptop ( I am tech. security specialist in IT) and were over controlling about where he went and who he spoke to( i know it sounds sick, but I just wanted to make sure he isn't preyed upon again. It's my take on the situation, maybe I'm in the wrong).
Life went on, we made new friends, everything was fine. When our lease expired I went to live with my girlfriend at the time. D was able to rent by himself, I did not abandon him. I kept a close eye on him. I kept monitoring his activities.
But he figured it out, I made a mistake he noticed. We had a fight.
He was mad at me for about 6 months. Then a mutual friend invited both me and my gf, and D for his promotion celebration dinner. He was not aware of the entire situation, but he knew I hacked D and thought that was it. So he made me apologize to D privately in his presence, he arranged it, said D missed me, I missed my best friend too. So we hugged and I invited D to our apartment. I told him how much I missed him and that i was engaged to my gf and started planning a wedding. He was really happy for me.
We reconnected immediately, in a month I made him my groomsman. Then I found out by gf cheated on me (i tracked her to her lovers apartment, broke in, caught them in the act, beat him, he ended up in ICU ) and called off the wedding. D was by my side whole time, supported me through this darkest time of my life. I took on heavy drinking, lost my job and lease on the apartment. D offered to move in with him on condition of sobering up. I agreed.
So I got sober in two months, got another job, got my own place. everything was fine again. Was seeing a therapist regularly.
So years went on. I quit therapy. We would hang out every weekend with D. He didn't date anyone and I obviously couldn't after such trauma. But recently when we discussed a couple of girls across us in a bar, I said I probably could use a one night stand. Jokingly I told him he had 5 seconds to pick which one he wanted to pursue and he casually told me that he didn't want to. And after a pause, he took a deep breath(looking me in the face) and said that he is questioning his sexuality.
It was two days ago. I don't know what to do. We aren't 18 anymore, so if he made a decision that it is important to tell me, he made up his mind. You must understand I am not open-minded anymore after all of the ordeals we went through. But i really care about him and want him in my life. But also it is clear to me I won't be able to keep my cool at some point for sure. I really don't know what to do. It is killing me to even think I'll have to cut ties with D. But I just can't deal with it. Please help me.What should i do?????
What is your imagination about god?
@thestrangest u r always saying ,,,,,before everything work on your mind,,,,,u r always in angry mood---
Because of stupidity, sure we both need to work on our minds but for different reasons. I'm not even debating anymore, roasting and trolling is what it is at now because i don't care anymore, the arguments aren't fun anymore because there's never anything new to respond to, it's always the same BS
Should I get a knife and kill myself already?
@pafin said in Should I get a knife and kill myself already?:
I wanna choke myself to death. id love to do that but, every time asphyxiation makes me realize that im doing a mistake...why should "I" suffer because of them? and my hands automatically stops.
It sounds like the way you're doing it will never work so keep doing the same thing
But the vituperation they does is so fucking nasty that it kills me from inside each time.
What do people tell you?
How many more time i have to die??
Uhm, do you even English bruh? Live and see another day and eventually things will get better
why cant i run away from this place?
You can, probably. How old are you?
Cuz the frustration and detestation inside me for them is expanding even more.
WHO THE FUCK ARE THEY, WANT HELP? SAY WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM
I want to eliminate them or wreck their existence.
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT
"I want to see their dead face, sleeping forever."
Wish the fire of hell blaze up their body and they cries for mercy.
Yo hell doesn't exist and you're going a bit too far with this... WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
Though those terrorizing memories they gave me are not even close to this. They should tolerate even more!
Hey that's some extreme shit, care to explain why you're wishing so much suffering on other people?
The only way to see me smiling from the bottom of my heart is to see them dead.
Yo at this point this is just getting annoying. Did i just open an old brail Chinese book with half the pages missing on a random page? CAN YOU BE MORE FUCKING SPECIFIC
But, Oops!..im changing again.. i dont care anymore the bullshit they says, i really dont give a fuck anymore.
Really? Cuz you definitely sounded like you care very very much, did it take 3 min for you to flip?
everything matters to me is friends.
COOL. Now LIVE for THEM
But the way they deceived me is revolting.
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFDFRRFD CAN YOU BE ANYMORE VAGUE
Thinking of that makes me feel nauseous. I only had them in my life.
You can find better ones
But R.I.P. cuz they betrayed me badly.
R.I.P. to who? WHO?
Choose a game you love (or tolerate) in each category!
@bushmurry 1 - First Person Shooter - I'd say... Hmmm... Maybe the Killzone series (Except for Shadowfall... That was complete shit... Lol) That's the only one that kinda stands out to me for some reason. The rest are just plain simple shooters... I'm A open world RPG type of guy. But maybe Battlefield is A good exception as well. (COD can just... Die... Please...) OH! But maybe TF2 as well! (But I can't play that anymore because their matchmaking system is terrible now...)
2 - Platform Game - Honestly... I don't really have any particular favorite Platform game. My games use 'Elements' of platforming, (Like most do.) but never really played A "Full on" Platform game for the fun of it. It really just depends... But to me, the whole genre doesn't seem like "Game of the Year" material anymore...
3 - Fighting Game - Again... Not A huge fan of this genre just for the fact that it's just all the same. (Like most FPS's.) But it's still fun as hell sometimes! So I'd say, Either Mortal Kombat X or Tekken 7. These games are both great and exceptional games that are fluid and fun. I use to like playing the WWE games with my brother. But they arn't really 'Great'.
4 - Racing Game - Use to love Grand Turismo. (Grew up with it with my PS1 and 2. Lol) But not very appealing to me anymore. I usually just race occasionally on GTA Online. (Because who doesn't?).
5 - Role Playing Game - A toss up with either Fallout 4, GTA V, Witcher 3 and Mount & Blade. (So many! You can't make me Choose!!! I won't let you! Cowers)
6 - Strategy Game - Oh BOI! XCOM man is so fucking fun! Lol... (Played the older ones and Enemy Unknown is still my favorite!) But I love when my RPG games have some elements of Strategy implemented in them as well. Civilization series arn't too bad. Also Age of Empires... Love that game so much when I was younger. (Probably one of my first PC games I can remember)
7 - Sports Game - Really just depends... This genre has none of my "Go to games" But they are fun to past time. So I'd say when I have it installed and not lagging my ass off on PC. Rocket League is fun. But I never mind kicking somebody's ass on A Fifa game or two when a person ask's me to play with them. Lol.
Sorry I type too much... Lol...