If you want to know the hidden truth of the phyiscal reality go with quantum physics I guess, but you have to be a genius able to not just learn the standard, but invent something new: the missing quantum-gravity theory.
However it seems your question goes a bit deeper . So I guess:
Trust in God to reveal Himself to you. The answer to your question is trust. Give up all that your heart is attached to to gain security and then trust.